tinylittlebox | day 235 ● an empathy test

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day 235 ● an empathy test

Wednesday:
☑ Blade: restraint; blindfold; food (9 pt)
☑ Cobalt: food; movie; hug; pampering; teaching (8 pt)
☑ Hiryuu: worries (3 pt)
☑ Hurricane: never have i ever (3 pt)
☑ Levi: hug; hair washing (4 pt)
☑ Moxie: hug; worries; activity (7 pt)
☑ Sabre: hold hands; confession (6 pt)
☑ Shrike: hold hands (1 pt)
☑ Thorn: piercing; hug (6 pt)
☑ Yugi: hold hands; learning (2 pt)

K:
☑ A: worries (3 pt)
☑ D.Va: confession; hold hands; fast car; activity (12 pt)
☑ Hiryuu: stab (5 pt)
☑ Hurricane: confession (5 pt)
☑ Skylark: fight; broken rib (10 pt)

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Ain't exactly what it could be if they tell you to do it and give you points and a pat on the back, is it?

[Yes, that was very unguarded. Good job this is a private conversation.]

I'd meant because of the emotional backsplash, but I suppose that too.

Don't think you'd have got anything much off her. But yeah. That too.

... what are you figuring on this one, anyway? B's not feeling it. I'm - I dunno. Don't wanna just quit without trying, but I'm not gonna lose any sleep over it.

I won't be putting in any effort, if that's what you're asking.

However I'm in something of a complicated situation with my boyfriend's friends, so things may be come messy regardless.

They people from home?

[K isn't sure he actually knows who A's boyfriend actually is, now he thinks on it...

[Well, it's not like he tells A everything. Or even all that much.]

... I guess it can't be helped sometimes. Even if we are meant to stay outta trouble. You need any backup?

Yes they're from home, no backup needed.

...Joker on Bad End, by the way. It's not as though it's a secret.

He's back? I haven't seen him for a while. Guess I must have missed him.

Just today, in fact.

[a little happier]

Oh, right...

[He laughs. Is there any point trying to cover embarrassment now? K's trying anyway.]

That'd be why I didn't see him. You had a chance to catch up yet?

[aaaand the happiness is gone]

A bit. I gave him some bad news and he's got rounds to make, popular as he is.

Edited 2020-05-09 00:26 (UTC)

So, it's complicated...

[Isn't it always. He's gonna have to find Hurricane at some point and fuck knows what's gonna happen then.]

You're alright, though?

I'm fine. No matter how complicated, I'd rather he be here than not.

And I know he won't abandon me, no matter how many of his friends' families I kill.

[laughs like it's a joke, but his emotional state makes it fairly clear it's not]

[Sure I can laugh like this is a joke.

[Fortunately (??? Citation Needed) I murdered people for money so it's not like I can judge or anything I am pretty sure I literally killed my ex (Citation Needed) so you're still doing way better than me on that front--

[No guilt like Catholic guilt, please enjoy this experience and the corresponding completely inappropriate facial expression.]

Guess it could be worse, then. Glad he's back anyway. Sorry the others are giving you grief.

[I'm glad we're AlcheME and can properly ignore human emotion]

I made my bed... but the sentiment is appreciated.

[10/10, I won't say anything if you don't.]

Someone did, anyway.

[... honestly, sometimes K's just damn glad he doesn't know anyone here, and nobody here knows him. It just seems like a whole 'nother layer of fucking hassle if you ask him.]

... can't think of him as me, really. But that's probably just a copout.

It's an interesting philosophical debate, though that's not mutually exclusive with being a copout.

Between you and "him," which would you consider the real you? And which do you prefer?

I'm me.

[That seems... obvious?]

He's someone else. I know like - maybe ten things about him? Christ, I don't even know what he's called. And I guess he wouldn't think I was real, either...

I dunno. He seems kinda like a fuckup.

I see.

My past self is something of a fuck-up as well, but I don't hold any illusions about it: he's the real me. I'm not sure what that makes me, though... a hollow imitation?

Seems pretty solid to me.

[Just gonna poke your shoulder, lightly.]

Can't you both be real? I'm the real me. The other guy's the real him. Probably we wouldn't even like each other.

[Just to be contrary:]

Perhaps neither one of us are real.

[do I need to poke you again bro]

You look real enough from here. Does it matter if you ain't if you think you are?

Another philosophical debate. Does it matter if I think I am?

[a little amused at his own contrariness]

[wait is this ~~a pigeon~~ philosophy??]

Yeah, but... you get hungry, right?

[I am very much not smart enough for this.]

...Yes...

Well, you're real enough for that, then.

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